2001-07-13

my problem isn't that i drink. my problem is that i keep having days that make drinking seem necessary.

and it's not like i'm drinking a lot. i've only had 5 in the last week. i only need the one. just to take the edge off. hmmm...that's a great feeling. that first beer after an amazingly shitty day at work. i figure i'm ok as long as i'm not drinking at home alone.

of course excercise would work too.

one of my work buddies was talking to my boss today. not his boss. no reason for him to talk to her other than socially. it was a closed door kind of thing. i had to drop something off. he turned bright red like i'd caught him doing something. i'm not paranoid. i'm not. i'm just worried that he'll start trusting her. she's preying on him. she knows we talk.

she's nuts. i think that every time i complain about her or mention her here i should give an example. one time she called MIS because excel wasn't working. they needed to come fix it. have i mentioned this? she used the sum function and according to her it wasn't working because she got a different number when she used her calculator. 'nough said.

there's no way i can have a bad weekend. i'm not at work.

i begged off of an evening at a friend's. i don't know. that shower left me not wanting to be around more than one other woman at a time.

i need more male friends. in this country.

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